Remotivation

Through our team meeting today, I have been remotivated to capture our campus' students' hearts for J.Cool. I've been desiring this for a long time, and I think Dad has finally started His work in this area of my life. I was randomly shuffling through some songs in my playlist, and I came across "Guhrisoodoh ae gaejuhl"... it's been a long time. When I heard that chorus for about the 6 billionth time, I broke down crying. I don't know why, I just was overcome with emotion. I had forgotten this vision. I had forgotten this rap. I had become so lost in the drudgery and work, that I forgot to remind myself everyday what calling I was working for.

As we drew out our trust goals and numbers for this year, I knew I could dream big. I knew I had to. This was something I needed to push for this year, not just to get big numbers and achieve big goals, but to achieve the GC. These young people are the future of their country and of this world. If I don't take advantage of the fact that I am here during this revolutionary time, I am missing out on being an effective worker in a strategic place at a strategic time.

So I jumpstarted my outreach, not for the purpose of doing "well" in my min. I jumpstarted it, because I realized I had been sleeping for the last year, and I needed to wake up. Step up. There is so much potential for great things to happen, miracles to happen, in the next couple months, the next year, the next decade. I can't let this chance slip by without putting my fingerprints all over it.

Dad-filled Day... not.

I just got back from a P & W session from a friends house, and I feel bush wacked. I was shown through the HS that this special Day for Dad had been filled with activities and events where I had done things to Him, and not with Him or for Him. I remedied that right away.

Other than that, here are the things I did today to Him:

-Prepped some bookmarks to remind people to rap for East Asia
-Went to building: tried to focus on songs, failed miserably on focusing on the message
-Wrote letters to home, with sp content
-Met with MSN couple and M couple, talked a lot about Dad and what He's doing all across this nation and the world
-Went to P & W session at friends house

A lot, huh? And I did all that to Him, with very little focus on Him at all. Makes me ashamed, makes me also wonder how many "cool" people do this on a daily basis. When will this lukewarm generation get sick and tired of pretending and going through the motions? I'm sick and tired of myself. Hypocrites. The major reason why this generation's Western culture avoids "coolness" like the Plague. Make me a solid, true, honest, genuine, passionate, open, fair, humble, gentle, understanding, unprejudiced woman, Dad.

A New Sister!

I met a friend today, who had not fully accepted before, because there were parts that she did not understand. Having another believing friend there sharing helped a lot... there were times when I felt really incompetent; I didn't know what to say, and I felt insecure about my sharing "skills" and "abilities", when I knew deep down inside that I was being ridiculous. I was not being led by the HS at that moment, but at that same time I felt Dad was speaking to me that my confidence was found not in myself, but in Him alone. It was shaming, but at the same time I felt so relieved... If doing EV was fully dependent on my skill alone, that would REALLY suck :-P Thank Dad for Dad!

My Friend

I met up with one of my friends from last year, and we were sharing about our summers. She shared how she felt motivated to use her major to share about Dad in the country of her major's language. It was the first time she's said anything like that.

"My Beloved mine, I His~"

Buzzing Busy-ness

I can feel the buzzing of busy-ness disturbing the air around me... it's that time again. Time when every minute is planned out, not enough hours in the day to do all that needs to be done, frantically rushing from one meeting to another appointment to the next party, with no minutes and no breaths to spare. It's a good but exhausting feeling, like the achy soreness your muscles feel after a good hard workout.

I met up with one of my contacts from last year, and she seems to be doing great after the summer! She read some material I gave her before the vacation, and she even found a Book at home that she read some of. She is interested in getting one here, which I already have ready to give to her next week. Yay Dad!

My gang makes me happy :). We have such unique, talented, and fun people this year, and I am grateful that I have this chance to work with them. I have a ton of stuff to do this week, and I will depend on Dad's grace to get me through it... please rap for me!

Always,
lovingEA

I'm Tired

I'm tired. It's been a hectic day/week/month. So much has happened since my last update... it's funny that when I didn't have easy access to internet I was diligent with updating my blog, but now that I have it 24/7 I haven't updated once... and it's been almost a month!

I've sent out my update newsletter today, and if you haven't received one let me know, and I will send one to you.

That's all I have to say for now. I am taking an SP Language class on P&W music, which should be interesting. I spent all day at Bridge for the first time in a long time, and it was so good. So good.